ENGAGED!
A long time ago, I felt like I got lost along the way. And with the heaviness of life and the burdens of the world, I stayed there…for a long time. I trudged along hoping to find a way back - back to the light with my pack of misfits. Each day, we got deeper into a path that nobody knew how to navigate. Wild, overgrown, and disorienting, I searched for a way out if it all. But through the mud as I marched on, things got heavier, darker…more confusing. And my guiding lights lost their glow, growing dimmer and dimmer over my shoulder until one day I couldn’t see anything clearly.
Suddenly it was dark…and I was lost.
And then, there was a little light around me. Always there… in the background like an ember that never quite wanted to give up, there you were…glowing and warm and ready to help. You appeared like a flash in a dream I once had. You came stumbling into this little rag tag group of renegades and you simply said “Y’all just follow me.”
Nothing scared you off. Nothing ever does. You always run towards the fire, not away from it. You didn’t fear any of it. Not the brokenness or the tattered parts. Not the fear in my eyes nor the desperation in my heart. You stood, unflapped, calm, and sure of it all…sure of us. From the very beginning, it just felt safe and warm and easy - like my old teapot bathrobe or that ragged old blanket you cover yourself with each morning while you sip on steamy coffe from one of your mugs. And you let all my stuff become a part of you - for better or worse. All my broken pieces. You never walked away…even when you were scared of it all, you held my hand and I looked into your eyes for that steadiness I needed.
And here we are…finding our way in this world, bringing all the characters along for this wild ride…mainly because they all make it better. Messier. Louder. More interesting. And more adventurous. What a ride. And this is just the beginning.
I am lucky for your light…the path we are forging isn’t easy. But what I realize now is that maybe I wasn’t really ever lost. Maybe all this time what I thought was no direction was just me looking for a new route – a new path to a new way of life…moving together to our very own brave, new world. One that adds and doesn’t subtract. One that celebrates and tolerates. One that forgives and moves on. One that supports, builds.
One that loves. Big love. Shameless love. Huge love.
Johnny. I am so lucky. I am so happy to have you in my life.
Let’s go plan that forever party now. It’s gonna be so fun!
